I would have liked to make a different film
Director: Suse Itzel
Producer: Academy of Media Arts Cologne & Suse Itzel
Premiere Status: North American Premiere
Screenwriter: Suse Itzel
Cinematographer: Suse Itzel
Cast: Suse Itzel
Release Year: 2024
Language: German (Germany)
Subtitle: English (United Kingdom)
Country: Germany
In a voiceover the filmmaker reports on the sexual abuse she had to endure as a child and teenager. She talks about the consequences that such violence can cause. An experimental video image reinforces the spoken word. Photographs from the past: pictures from a living room that no longer exists. The family appears as a gap. A green couch in the older photos and a green couch as a reconstructed sculpture. Images as projections in different places: painful memories that reappear in the present. In psychiatric rooms, studio spaces or shared flats.